Stuck in a Moment

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
From the Song "Stuck in a Moment" by U2

That's me. I'm Stuck in a Moment. Well, not one in particular, it's more like many moments. I keep thinking about all of the moments in the past that I wish I could relive. I don't mean things that I wish I could change. I mean the moments that I wish would have lasted just a little longer - those special moments with a now lost loved one, milestones in my life, milestones in Cayden's life. Those kind of moments are where I'm stuck. I know that change is inevitable and necessary and sometimes even for the better. And, (to use a tired cliche) time marches on. But, I'm hopelessly sentimental. I don't want to sound unhappy or ungrateful. I am thrilled with how God has blessed my life, with how I have grown and changed and excited at the prospect of all that is to come for us. But, I'm also scared. The future is the unknown. At least when I go to the past in my mind I can play the whole story out from beginning to end. There isn't so much unknown in the past. So, there you have it. I guess I'm not as sentimental as I thought. It's more about fear than sentimentality. There's a song (no, I don't describe myself solely with songs, it just happened that way in this post) by The Kry called "Take My Hand". In it there is a line "Don't you say 'why were the old days better, just because you're scared of the unknown'". Sound like anyone you know? I'm working on it...

P.S. Those are both good songs. If you've never heard them, you should track them down.